Well, after many weeks of thinking about it...I decided today was the day that I was going to stop wearing my wig. I had already been going out and about to some places without it, but I had been wearing it everyday to school. I was worried about how the kids would react. Late last night I started messing around with my hair to see how I might could fix it. Considering it is only maybe an inch long, this was definitely easier said then done. I started by looking at short hairstyles online thinking maybe I could get an idea. I found one that was kind of spiky.....thought I might could pull it off. I was wrong. I showed Allie first and she said she liked it better flat. So I took off to my neighbor's house for a second opinion. She is one of those great friends that will be brutally honest with you. She nicely told me that it looked a little like I had been in a wind tunnel. Thanks Jay! It takes a good friend to tell you what you need to hear sometimes. So, I almost gave up but woke up and decided that I would just fix it and wear it however it came out. Allie was so sweet. She told me"It's time Momma. Your hair has gotten long enough." I agreed so off I went to school with my so-called hairstyle.
I got a lot of double looks and questionable gazes, and two of my boys told me I looked scary......that was a little hard. Allie heard some of the muttering and I could tell that it really upset her. I told her it would be okay and she said she just didn't like people talking about me like that. I sat my class down and talked to them about me being sick this summer and how this was my real hair. I told them that I really wanted to be myself and asked them if it would be okay. I told them I know it is not a beautiful style, but I am waiting for it to grow. They were so sweet after that. The rest of the day went smoothly. The longer I was there, the less awkward I felt. At recess, the wind was blowing pretty hard and I kept thinking how weird it felt to feel my hair blowing. I am so glad I decided to do it. This was just that little reminder of my cancer that I was ready to get rid of. Now all I have to do is get rid of my port and stay cancer-free. EASY!
Here is a picture that Allie took of me this afternoon. She is a little photographer in the making.
Thanks to all who supported me today by telling me how great I looked.
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Hi Amanda! I'm a friend of Brandy's and Chloe Steindorf's mom. I just wanted to say, I think you look beautiful with your short, sassy hair! I'm so happy to see how great you're doing! As a spouse of a cancer survivor, I can appreciate every milestone and success you celebrate and embracing the hair situation is huge. Congratulations!
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